Don't get me wrong, I believe in silver linings. I believe there is always good to be found in the world which is why I so strongly believe in counting your blessings.
But I also believe in honesty, and in all honesty, this week has sucked. Like, really badly.
I've had several posts sitting in my drafts waiting to be published, but haven't been able to do it because when you lose someone you love, everything else seems so trivial. After the news of Frankie's death, it's been all I can think about. I haven't slept well in the four days I've known about it and all I want is to be with my second family and wrap them in a huge hug. I am really, really sad.
Now add to that combination of grief, a barren kitchen because we can't afford groceries and a wasted day of leave from work because I couldn't afford the gas it would take me to get me there and back.
I'm so thankful for my husband. He is my greatest joy and the light in my gloomiest of days. And then when I think about how much I love him and how lost I would be without him, my thoughts are turned to Frankie's wife and baby girl. How unfair that the person they love the most in the world has been ripped away from them.
It's not my intention to throw myself a pity party. But I'm calling it like I see it- this week sucks.
Seems today is the day for blogging honesty about suckiness. I did it too. I'm sorry that your week is such a bummer. Praying for you friend.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, girl. Praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteyou are mourning the loss of someone who was obviously incredibly close to you. it's such a hard concept (i know bc i deal with it myself), but you have to kind of give yourself a little bit of a free pass right now to feel the way you are. if someone told you they were feeling the exact way you just wrote about, i'm pretty sure you'd tell them to take time and that it's okay. so tell yourself that too, love.
ReplyDeleteI am hoping things get better for you. Grief sucks.
ReplyDeletePraying for you! *hugs*
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